butterflydreams

The End of a Chapter.

As my 22^nd birthday soon approaches, I can’t help but feel…well...weird. For the first time in my entire life, I have no idea what my future holds.  I mean from the time I was 5 till now I’ve pretty much known what I would be doing year to year.  I was going to this grade next year and the next and so on and then with college, I had a good idea of what that would be like also.  So be turning 22 in less than 2 months is terrifying.  I feel so old.  I mean I know in reality 22 isn’t that old, but right now at this point in my life it sure feels like it.  I’ve never been a “real” adult with “real” responsibilities with no more help from anyone.  I think there are two crisis’ you go through in life.  First is the “Oh crap, I’m about to graduate from college and be in the real world and I don’t have a clue where my life is leading me.” The second is the “Oh crap, I’m halfway done with my life and I didn’t do everything I said I would and I’m not young anymore.”  Both are only temporary and I know things will get easier once I get passed this semi-crisis.  I’m excited to see what life holds for me and my future.